Life walking in this mommies shoes

well life has certainly took my life for a good ol' twist. we no longer live with my father and are moving in to Curtis's mothers house this weekend. Boy is this going to be different i consider Curtis's mom as my own and i consider myself close to his brother but living here is a whole new world.&& even tho god told Curtis's mom like three days ago he was sending us her way and he choose this to happen it still makes me scared &&& very very nervous. I don't want to make anyone mad here ever so i already notice myself i start getting really quite now and shutting down so i don't say or do the wrong thing. && another issue on my mind tonight is this girl Curtis works with i get it he has known her for a year and there super close and she has a boyfriend and madly in love and he has no feelings for her like that but i still have a part of me thinking he does.&& Ive never doubted Curtis or not trusted him or anything and now i do all the time especially with her. && he keeps living out details he tells me he is going out to get food come to find out her is out having dinner with "friends"meaning her && today he went to help her with no getting screwed over on a new phone contract and he said he was going to get lunch and bring Caleb back something come to find out he went out to lunch but she came with him. like really why does he feel the need to not tell me these issues like i get it may not seem like a big deal to him but does he not understand leaving things out is reasons as to why girls start assuming things because its seems like theres a reason why you are not saying anything if that makes sense i don't know i guess ever since me and him separated i have found all these new insecurities i never even knew i had. I just want things to get better and start healing its so awkward the fact that I'm moving in with Curtis's family and me and him are not even a family anymore. Oh i didn't even mention the best part this girl he is so close too now is trying to help us move tomorrow can you say major awkward she already knows i think they like each other cause Curtis has a huge mouth lol but i don't know i have no idea where my life is trying to drag me too and where god taking me and why is he shaking every aspect of my life up and completely changing it id rather him just do one at a time please.lol i just pray all these troubles don't last any long then the end of the month of June please please please that's an answered pray i would just run up and down the street screaming happiness for lol.